Saturday, September 8, 2007

Fun night out w/ friends

well I had a great night out and it was well needed. Got to spend time w/some old friends who I havent seen in a while. Friends who love and appreciate me for me. Who accept my flaws and love me when I am up and when I am down. People who love me fat or trying. Love just Gwen.I had a good long talk w/ my friend BuddyLuv last night on the phone. He encourages me to keep doing better and acknowledges how far I have come. He is just great to chat w/ and connect w/. He gets me.I realize more and more each day that Mike was fun to be w/ but was never going to THE ONE. He has lived his life w/ countless woman who he can discard as nothing. He is drowning himself in a sea of pointless p@ssy and that will never amount to a lifetime of contentment. I need more, I want more and I deserve more. The heart still hurts from the betrayal but I will continue to fight back to get the part of myself back. Everyday is a new day towards a new life. He can not keep me down.

4 comments:

Danielle Bultron said...

Way to go my SISTA! You sound better, on the right track. It's about YOU....

Ms. Bonnie Muir said...

Gwen, From just reading your blog it is so clear that you are an HONEST, insightful and strong woman. I don't know if you are "religious/spiritual/etc" but I truly believe that God/the universe/whoever does not give us more than we can handle. This situation SUCKS really bad right now. Being betrayed sucks. BUT! You are walking through the pain and when you reach the other side (which you will) you will be stronger. Keep the focus on YOU - continue to write about your pain, doubt, insecurities... keep eating right and going to WW... and hold your head up high. You need to get yourself ready for the man who is going to treat you the way you KNOW you deserve to be treated.

Danielle Bultron said...

Nice comments Bonnie. Very encouraging. YOU go girl!!

Fronde said...

You write very well.