Weight Watchers Update

Today at WW I lost 3.5 lbs for a total of 45.5 lbs. Deep down I am happy and proud of myself but and want to shout but this heavy chest of sadness that I carry would not allow me. Instead I cried again, I cried for the piece of me that I let him take away. The piece of me that had great self esteem and loved herself. If I can be proud of myself and love myself why is that it just wasn't good enough for him? Maybe my best is just never going to be good enough. UUUURRRGGHH!!! I just don't understand so many things right now. I can only hope each day will get better